the winds of change

The winds of change are strong and steady in my life as they have been I feel since I met the Lord, really.  At times they have consisted of new jobs, new countries, new friends, and new experiences. Only this month, I have gotten a second job, told that job was going to close down, had very few hours at my cafe job and now about to be given a full time job there. I went from being a brunette, (the darkest color I had ever been in my life) back to a blonde, my hair that I was determined to grow out chopped back into a sassy bob-ish look. I went from thinking that I would be moving back in with my dad and feeling like I was recessing in my life to looking at being a roommate with a girl that I wasn't sure of to being landed in the middle of renting out a basement apartment and getting to pick out what colors I wanted my bathroom.  I went from a deeply broken and aching heart to feeling like the life is being pumped back inside of me and the essence of who He has made me to be beginning to show itself again.

Life is an ever changing ride, at times I wish I had a forecast so I could know what was ahead, what to brace myself for, to look forward to. I believe the reason why we don't is that God wants to take us by our hand and walk with us through the heart-wrenching lows and the breath-taking highs.

At the moment I am praying for Him to change the way I see things. I know that usually He is more concerned with our hearts, our vision, our hearing than where we are at and what we are doing. I want to be able to see rightly and that means to see how He sees and not how my fleshly failing eyes see. I want to be able to see people and situations in my life from His viewpoint. I want to remember that this life is but a breath and that eternity is my destiny, my true home.

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Melissa said…
I don't know how I missed this post. I'm a little behind the times! May the mighty breath of God continue to blow over your life, my friend! I love the freshness in your life!
February 7, 2012 at 8:11 PM
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