So many thoughts, so little time...

I have often thought of starting a blog but never done it. At times, a lack of resources has held me back and at other times a lack of courage. Even as I set this up today, there has been something in my heart that surprised me. A fear, maybe of stepping into something that I know that is in me, revealing myself, putting myself out there, also I feel a bit afraid of what is in me, both good and bad.

I have always wanted to write. I wanted to be an author growing up but as time went by and as things happened in my life, that dream was buried, far beneath the recesses of growing pains, disappointments, and heart-ache I thought that it was gone for good. For the most part forgotten, I moved on, at times those thoughts and desires surfacing only to be swept aside and life continued on with.

The great Dream-giver though has placed something in me. As I have continued to walk with Him, He has continued to restore, set free, bind up, and something has slowly surfaced in me. I have put it off, pushed it down, held it back, and it just keeps coming back. This blog is a surrendering of me in some way. I look forward to freeing myself, to letting myself wander around inside my heart and head and actually having a record of all of it. It is also a bit terrifying as I step out into something I feel God has put in me, called me to, and although I enjoy it, I also feel the weight of crafting words, the power of life and death, here for all to read.

So here it is, please be gentle, we are all a work in progress (thank goodness) and I am a woman of many layers and facets. What I may say now may shift and turn, change shape as I change my mind and as the Lord changes me. Welcome to my blog.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Congratulations on your first piece Destiny!!!! Let the pelling begin (onion layers). Thanks for sharing.

David C.
October 2, 2011 at 10:47 AM
Melissa said…
"Welcome to my blog," what long-awaited words! I am so pleased to see this leap of faith you are taking, and I so look forward to what God is going to use you to do in this season. Write on!

Love and blessings,
Melissa
October 2, 2011 at 10:55 AM
Anonymous said…
Destiny, you wonderful and beautiful woman of God have amazing, thoughtful, insightful, encouraging, and inspiring things to say.............keep saying them! (richele)
November 7, 2011 at 4:57 PM
Sam said…
Welcome to the blog-sphere sister! I'm so excited to be able to read those words that have poured out of your mind and heart...Sam
November 13, 2011 at 7:45 PM
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